Two Sides Collide.

I have faith. I lack belief.
I have hope. Hopelessness overwhelms me.
I am alive. I am dead within
I breathe. I am crushed with suffocation.

I deserve better. I am not worthy.
I live. Only barely.
I am happy. Grief engulfs me.
I laugh. Will my silent sore tears,
Ever leave me be?

I love you.
Do I?
Please don't leave me. Stay away, step aside.
I forgive you.
Can I?
I am newly whole. Torn up inside.
I am ready.
Am I?

I am willing. I am terrified.


I hold onto angels. My soul, demons embrace.