A Light that Proved Too Good to be True.

There's something that's inside of me
that hurts me till I cry...
That doesn't seem to let go of me
no matter how much I try...
I clutch, claw and feebly attempt
to rip it...right out of my chest...
But it seems to be linked to everything around me
like it says "wound me n you kill the rest!"

I can't kill the rest...
however much it may satisfy
Because killing the rest would be killing parts of me
parts of me, without which I couldn't survive...
It shatters me on the inside
and wounds me in ways unknown to man...
It breaks me, hurts me and then smiles angelically
as if to say...
...stop me if you can...

Knowing my weakness and sorrows
like a shadow it slowly eats its way into my soul...
And I inevitably succumb to it numbness
not being able to do anything but wait and hope...

Suddenly a beam of light so strong
comes and hits me straight in the eyes...
It fills my mind and burns my skin
like a meteor or comet falling from the skies...
Slowly...very slowly that beam..
turns into a soft yet comforting sight...
It bounces around like a person dancing
and plays with my tired yet suddenly careful eyes...

I wait and watch...staring at this light
wondering if it will disappear just as quickly as it came...
And then the unpredictable realization dawns upon me
as a feeling of surprise and happiness creeps into my brain...
I realize that this light wont leave...
not unless I make it go away
It will stay with me from now to eternity
Forever by my side it will stay....

So I let the light take over me
and this is probably an irreversible mistake
But all of a sudden this light means so much
that its a risk im willing to take....
It holds me like I belong to it and carries me..
in its firm, yet gentle arms...
And all my fears seem childish now
like nothing could ever...ever do me any harm.

It dances its way into my battered soul
and drives out all the shadowy flames..
It picks up the pieces of my bruised heart
and puts it back to the way it was originally made...
It leaves little whispers on my face...and lingers on my lips...
It overwhelms my brain...
...and rushes the blood to my fingertips...

I have not a care in the world now
and I owe it to this beautiful bright light...
It never fails to amaze me
and enchant me with its mesmerizing ways of life...
Its taken away all the pain and the hurt...
and given me happiness as a cure
I pray & hope this light never leaves me..
because without it...
....I would lose all that I now stand for.